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by the wahdad on February 18, 2011

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Age Comes…

November 12, 2010

Age comes, sometimes slowly, sometimes terrifically fast. Seeing a friend after an extended break with a newly acquired bunch of wrinkles on neck and face. Either a major shock or a major turning point. There was a small illness – just mild flu and in bed for a few days over holidays – and this [...]

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Why Breakfast Is Not A Mess For 4 Children

November 9, 2010

I can’t remember what breakfast was like in our house when some of the boys were going to school and some were not. I do remember vividly what it was like when they all started going together. I was working at the time but decided to stay home to see them off that first day [...]

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The Perfection Of An Orange

October 5, 2010

The only place that’s felt like home and feels like home to me is with you. I think we have kept moving, hoping to find that feeling outside as well. And maybe that is our quest or our fate – to look for it in many places at many times and find bits of it [...]

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Even Homer Nods

September 24, 2010

And if I am not all things at all times, forgive me. Sometimes I feel stuck, lost in my own list of priorities. Sitting on a bench in someone’s garden looking out over the hills of El Dorado drinking beer, feeling bruised. You came smiling with a picture of a hair style and asked if [...]

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The First Time I Saw You

September 23, 2010

The first time I saw you in green and gold with eyes shining like the sea on white sand at Ardnamurchan on a sunny day I thought I had lost my place in time. Everything and everyone around you faded while you stepped out of my greatest hopes, my wildest imaginings, and my deepest longings [...]

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My Bluff Has Been Called

September 16, 2010

What a strange day! I went down to the valley for a meeting with a guy to find out more about a business opportunity a friend of my wife’s and I had met about and decided to explore. He thought it was a good idea and offered to fund the business, provide training and office [...]

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Disillusionment And Discovering Bedrock

September 13, 2010

Right now I am tired all the time. I have no interest in reading. I have no interest in watching movies. Having a drink with my wife or friends feels like an awful prospect to me. I have no good thoughts. I have no positive thoughts about the future. I do not feel that the [...]

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The Worst Day: Is This The Bottom?

September 6, 2010

I hear pundits talking about the bottom of the recession, the descent slowing and stopping, being on the other side, and such like. These images of decline apply to my personal situation. I am in a depression, the like of which I have no memory. These last few days have been the worst. I desperately [...]

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